fyi

it's official. no more pregnancies.

a little vasectomy humor

On Our Plate

We have a big decision to make soon. We knew my body would have some damage from having pregnancies back to back. After Josie was born and I was getting stitched back up Dr. Gordon gave me some bad news. "Your uterus is very thin. There is so much scar tissue there's practically nothing to sew together. Your risk of uterine rupture is very high now." He didn't say we couldn't have any more children, just that he would not deliver them.
-Get a second opinion? How? He was the only surgeon, and an ultrasound can't detect scar tissue.
-Wait 5 years and see if my body heals? again, how would we know after 5 years the condition of it (without surgery), and what if we got pregnant before then? We don't want to put ourselves in the position of having to choose between a child's life and my own.

It's such a bittersweet time in our home right now. Being faced with the very real possibility of never being pregnant again (feeling that little one move inside me), having a permanent method of birth control at only 24, and only having 3 children.

---But celebrating in the 3 very healthy happy children we have been blessed with, and savoring the joys of being their parents and watching them learn and grow and love.

And thankfully, we were somewhat prepared for the news. We discussed adoption a month or so ago. Some people have the opinion that you don't adopt if you can become pregnant and have your own children. However, we are of the opinion that if we can provide the home that child deserves then we adopt. We couldn't do it for many more years and would possibly foster before adopting, but we have it for consideration.

We need to get to the temple, soon!

For Carrie

Carrie's been asking me to post a preggo picture of myself. She also didn't care for my response that there is one because I'm preggo in the family picture up top. Hila sent me a picture she took at Stacy's shower. I'll try to take a better one to replace this one. Oy! ! look bad!

Silver Lining

I feel horrible today. I'm light-headed, dizzy, and nauseous. For awhile I couldn't stand without feeling like I was going to pass out. I'm hoping it's just pregnancy related and not a virus. So, I haven't been getting enough sleep or taking my iron and I hadn't eaten any breakfast. I'm feeling much better now after eating and I took my iron. But I'm still exhausted so my niece Leighann is coming over to watch the babies so I can sleep. And my lovely sister Karen is not only lending me her daughter, but is also bringing me a Coke.

But every cloud has a silver lining, right? My back is feeling great today!

Well it's time to sleep.

Update: I felt much better after my nap. I only had a headache to contend with and it disappeared shortly thereafter.

A New Year!

Ben goes back to work tomorrow. (Boooo!!) so I finished cleaning up the nursery while he was still home. It only took 2 hours. I'm continuing to have horrible back pain. And my body apparently hasn't received the message that medicine is supposed to help with the pain. (hahaha! It laughs at me.) Unfortunately, nothing can be done to relieve the pain except to have the baby. So, only 44 more days to go.

As far as the name game is going. . . Sarah Josephine is out. Among other reasons, I have come across too many people with that name. (Me and my disgust of the common.) Josephine could still work or we can save it for a different child. Ben suggested Miriam Elise. (He simply picked Miriam from the bible.) I haven't responded to that one yet. At first it sounded horrid, but I'm still feeling it out. Of course the movie I picked to watch yesterday ended up having a main character named Miriam. After hearing someone else say the name, it sounded nicer. So, the hunt continues.